Hey Slacky! I can't imagine how difficult it must feel to not have the support of your parents. I'm so sorry that they don't respect you in regards to your gender and aspirations. Perhaps it is something they can come to terms with eventually.
And about being alone... there is hope in finding a support group of friends to fall back on. Keep up with making and posting your art on PJ, it's great stuff!

I personally disagree with the last sentence. What I believe is not that you failed them, but that they failed you. No one can be perfect, and everyone has a right to be what they want to be. I feel they were wrong to think that it was OK to try to pressure you into being something you couldn't be and to reject you when you didn't turn out the way they wanted you to be. I hope you know that even though your family left you like that, you still have at least one person in this world that cares, even if they have no other means of helping besides letting you know that they have faith in you and support you every step of the way.

Though I haven't had an issue comparable to yours, I do have a father who, to be frank, I think acts rather immature sometimes and doesn't have a good control over his own emotions. His temper is short, and his anger sometimes makes me feel like he expects me to be perfect or to magically know something, and though he still has his good sides and I still love him, he has become a source of frustration that I can't get away from until I have the means to move out.

And about a year or so ago, I was in a similar place as you. Not the same, but I was in a lot of emotional pain because of something terrible that happened. The pain lasted several months, and learning the true nature behind what happened caused me to wake up the next morning feeling hatred and contempt for the person responsible. I can never forgive that person for causing me so much emotional torment, nor forget their act of breaching my trust the way they did.

But the good news? I know that someday I'll be able to move out and live on my own, and I (mostly) healed from the past. And I'm confident that you can heal, too. Sadly I'm not the kind of person who can offer counselling or something similar, but I have faith that you can learn to be stronger than you ever were. There are people out there that I'm sure will gladly welcome you where your family didn't - I certainly would, because the only thing that matters to me is the personality.
And I think you have a very good personality. We haven't really talked, but I really think so.

I wish for your recovery.