This is probably the less appropriate place for this, but i feel it is just too much for me to handle. My baby daughter haven't come back from sleep, don't know what happened yet - possible cause fatal drug combination, zoloft and some painkiller she took before go to bed. She just turn 18 a few days ago and was so happy she can buy cigarettes on her own. Now I still see her online in skype, write unspoken words and afraid to hit enter because that bad dream will become a reality - she will not reply anymore... I thought I've seen crap in life, but picking a coffin for my child top everything off. I know, I'm not first and unfortunately not the last father loosing his child, you don't know her but if you, good people, can find in your heart to say simple "Good bye Jessica" this monday at 1 pm est please do so. I don't expect everyone to post here, I do realize there is no word capable to fix this... And I dont feel up to continue with the whole art thing any longer. At least for now, when sense of being peels off from everything. Thanks everyone. This account will be abandoned for some time, I would take my time to readjust my life with half of soul left .
Our thoughts are with Fool and his family. Let's all say goodbye to Jessica at 1 PM EST today. (February 15, 2010)
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today;
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
As much as I love you;
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
She said my place was ready
In heaven far above;
And that I'd have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye;
For all my life, I'd always thought
I didn't want to die.
So much yet to do;
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad;
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
Just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
I might miss come tomorrow;
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates
I felt so much at home;
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne.
He said, "This is eternity
And all I've promised you;
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it all starts anew."
"I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
And since each day's the same day,
There's no longing for the past."
"But you have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true;
Though at times you did do things,
You knew you shouldn't do."
"But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free;
So won't you take my hand
And share my life with me?"
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.
I have just seen this message and I am very sad for you there I espers that no relative will have to live this situation but regrettably it is the life needs to continue to fight this pains which can of people feel but which have all enormous one hearts, me says his with full knowledge of the facts with my best friend that he him remains encors. Thus a thing well holds out.
GOODBYE JESSICA
I may be 10 days late, but i would still like to show my respect.
All my strength goes to you Yuriy. Good luck over there.
Ah, poor thing. Wishing you and her peace. Please be careful not to isolate yourself - and make the most of the company of the people you love, as it will help ease the pain.
When I talk with my mum, we smile, that on 1st November spirits of my uncle, my grandfather, aunt, they are they stands next to us on a cementary, invisible, and they are talking merrily to each other "look, flowers for me are more lovely that your ones".
Or now, my uncle, my grandfather and grand-grandfather, they are sitting in some room, they are smoking cigarettes, trinking liqueur, playing cards and waiting for us, for me, for my mum, grandmum...
I'm sure, that all good people, who died, are now happy in the another world, and they don't want worry us. (sorry for my english in the last sentence).
wise words.
however, soe that are already deoressed may go into a deeper state of depression by getting proffessional help. sadly i've seen it happen. i said my goodbyes already so i won't say them again.
wishing you all the happiness the world can give you, fool.
I'm very shocked by this news... I'm so sorry, Fool... I think I know what you feel, a little bit. My grandfather gone from this world one year ago... Soon (on Wd-day) we will have an anniversary... We lost the head of family. I know, that it isn't so big tragedy as your one... I'm so sorry... But Fool, don't be so worried - believe me - She's smoking a cigarette and smiling to you from another world, and I believe, She wanna say "Don't worry, dad, I'm fine now too, I'm nearby".
I know, Jessica, that now You are in an another place, and you gone there. So, Good Bye, see you one day.
sad news =/ my condolences, fool.
from what i've witnessed with a colleague a few years ago, i just can give you the advice to take your time but to not punish yourself for the rest of your live. giving up hobbies, avoid seeing friends etc. only leeds into much bigger emptiness. and if you feel that the pain is gonna eat you, don't be afraid of getting proffesional help.
take care!
and goodbye jessica.
Words can not express.how I feel about your loss. There is a time to be strong and a time to be weak... Perhaps you can be weak at this moment and we at PJ will be strong for you. Myself and my family will have you in our prayers. Good Night Dear Jessica, and good bye.
I cannot fathom what you are going through, and I know that saying, "I'm sorry" will not change reality.
What I can say is that we're here for you Fool, whether you know it or not, silently praying for you, your family, and Jessica.
With a heavy heart, Good bye Jessica.
I'm sorry I don't know you other than by your art. But nobody should have to go through this. Our hearts are with you, even those who don't know you.
I don't even know what to say. Fool, our hearts are with you.
Goodbye, Jessica.
Man this brought tears to my eyes. I am really sorry for your loss, really hard to say anything else. You're one of the finest pixel artists I know, and even if I don't know you in person, I feel, from what I've seen and heard, that you're a very decent guy, and you don't deserve this. Hang in there mate, bring back the art when you're ready!
Goodbye, Jessica.
[EDIT: fixed typos, couldn't think straight right away]
I'm so sorry for your loss Fool. I buried my son a little over a year ago, and I can say that while I'm doing better, I still catch myself thinking of the what if's.
Be with friends and family and talk about her with everyone you possibly can, that's the only advice I can give coming from someone who knows where you're coming from.
Once again, i'm sorry to hear of your loss :(
Good bye Jessica.
As a new father I read this with pain in my heart. There are no words that tell the feelings you're undergoing. All I can do is comply to your wish.
Goodbye Jessica..
I've never spoken to you, but my deepest sympathies go out to you. Thank you for all the inspiration you've given us, and your daughter will still be with you, smiling over you whereever you go.
Goodbye, Jessica.
I'm late for this, sorry for the loss of your daughter fool
Goodbye Jessica
I am very sorry to hear of your loss.. As a fairly new parent I couldn't even imagine what it must be like to lose a child. Be strong in not letting this tear you apart. Jessica would not want her father's gift (your amazing artistry) to leave this world with her. It's hard not to grieve. But celebrating her time here is equally important. Goodbye, Jessica.
God bless you and your family.
Goodbye Jessica.
I'm sorry Fool.
Be strong in this terrible moments...
Goodbye Jessica...
Oh, this is bad news :'(
I'm very very sorry, mr Fool.
Goodbye Jessica.
I can't believe this happened. I'll be praying for you and family. You have given so much great art. Thank you, and may you have many more good things come back to you in return.
I can't even begin to understand what you must be going through... My heartfelt condolences to yourself and your family.
Really sorry for what happened, i can't image what you must be going through, you have my best wishes from the bottom of my heart.
My sincere condolences to you Fool and your Family.Take care of you during this pain time...Enter the Heaven, Goodbye Jessica.
I don't know what to say... my condolences.
Good bye Jessica.
All my deep and sincere condolences for this tragic loss :(
Goodbye, Jessica.
My friendly thought go to you and your family in these dificults times.
Goodbye, Jessica.
I wish you and your family all the best for this hard time!
Goodbye, Jessica.
My condolences to you and your family, fool. Rest in peace, Jessica.
Goodbye Jessica, sad to see you go and i hope you can find fulfillment in you're life.
May her sould rest in peace, I'm sorry for your loss Fool, this is a huge tragedy :( Be strong. Greetings
even though i don't post on pixeljoint much anymore, i have to say, that i'm really really really sorry for your loss and i know none of us can even imagine what you must be going through.
you have my prayers, my condolences, everything, fool, i'm really sorry for you. may God be with you and your family.
goodbye, Jessica... ):
Goodbye Jessica. Yuriy, you are incredibly strong to let us know :(
oh god im so sorry. i can't even imagine how hard that would be. you have my prayers and condolences for whatever its worth.
oh man.. Guys, thatk you very much for you support , I haven't feel her presence during the service and truly think her soul heard you voices and found her way out. Aside of this - please treasure lives of your beloved, it is very fragile thing and their love gives a meaning to everything even thought it has none to begin with. Sorry, I'm not really think well yet. I'll see you all later.
My thoughts and prayers are with you sir. From one who's gone through this, things will never be the same, but in time they get a little easier...
Such a sad event to have taken place, may your daughter Jessica have a peacful rest.
I am late, and I am sorry. Goodbye Jessica. Rest in peace.
God be with you Fool.
I'm very sorry for your loss Fool.
You've left a massive impact on this community and we're all thinking of about you and your daughter.
Goodbye.
Goodbye, Jessica.
I did take some time a few hours beforehand to say so and say a prayer, but I felt I should properly express it here. My condolences, Fool.
Goodbye, Jessica...
That's such awfull news...I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like...
Hang in there, Fool. Know that everyone at Pixel Joint loves you, and that we're all here to support you.
I wish you all the strength in the world to pull through this.
Goodbye Jessica.
Yura, take your time with everything and I hope and pray you come back without letting yourself slip away.
I know I'm late. I'm really sorry to hear about your daughter, like anyone else, I couldn't bare to lose any loved one, and I understand (but don't know) how you feel. If there is anything any of us can do, let us know. I am sure she is in a better place now, watching over you. I'm sure she'd only want the best for you, and not to be miserable and depressed (although, you're righteously entitled to feeling that way).
Goodbye, Jessica.
My condolences go out to you. I hope that you'll come back to Pixeljoint eventually, though, and inspire more people (like myself) with you art.
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How come the greatest people always have the greatest tragedies happen to them.
Fool, I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish you strength in your heart.
Dogmeat {DM}